"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'"
This one individual verse has pretty much been the basis for my college career up until this point. I started out wondering where I would attend college and eventually wondering what my major would be. In fact, before I even began college I decided to change my major. Now here I am, two years in, once again wondering if I've made the right decision.
I've been having a pretty tough time with some of the classes needed for my major, which if you read my bio you know is nursing. This difficulty has offered me up a lot of reason for questioning, why am I struggling? Am I having a hard time because God is trying to tell me this isn't for me? Is this difficulty God's way of testing me to see how much I can take? Over the course of these past few months I have tried various studying techniques, talking to the professor, and even attended tutoring sessions and it seems that I'm still having a difficult time remembering and comprehending what it is I need to be learning. If it's this hard for me now just imagine how much harder it'll be once I actually get INTO the nursing program.
This has also been pretty difficult for me as I am typically a planner. I'm always dreaming and planning things for my future. Up until this point I knew exactly where I wanted to live, where I wanted to work, and what I wanted to be doing, but recently I haven't been so sure. I suppose you could say I had been planning to prosper but as I was doing this, I was forgetting that the real plan should be done through God's will.
Every time I get down on myself, much like I am now, and begin asking the what-ifs and the whys, I read and reread that verse. I actually painted myself a picture of this verse for my dorm room as a simple reminder of who is in charge. Once we stop planning for ourselves we can see the plan God has laid out for us. It is important for us to remember that planning to prosper is going to get us nowhere. It is when we take a step back, fall on our knees, pray to God, and listen to him that we ACTUALLY begin to prosper.
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